I love a whole variety of music … my ipod has everything from classical to rap… but the other day, a song I hadn’t heard in a long time came on as I was driving home, and I actually started crying…
I sincerely apologize if all that I sound like, is I’m complaining,
But life keeps on complicating
Stress has overwhelmed me. I’m strong. A survivor. But I am just human.
why do I act like I’m all high and mighty,
When inside, I’m dying, I am finally realizing I need help.
I can’t do it by myself, too weak, 2 weeks I’ve been having ups and downs,
Going through peaks and valleys, dilly dallying
Afraid people will see me as weak, I wear the smile that everyone has come to rely on.
Be strong for your family.
Don’t let them see you sweat.
Don’t ask for help.
I’m hatin’ my reflection, I walk around the house tryin’ to fight mirrors,
I can’t stand what I look like, yeah, I look fat, but what do I care?
It’s true. I avoid my reflection.
I realize I’m tired. Tired of being bullied. Tired of trying to be civil with someone who won’t ever be happy. Won’t ever act like an adult. Will fight me on anything I ask. It’s exhausting. My family tells me they’re worried. I’m always tired… going, doing, trying to find a way to make everyone happy. Never resting. Never taking time for me.
I need something to give.
Time to make some changes… do some things for me.
lyrics are from Eminem’s song Going Through Changes featuring Ozzy Osbourne from his album Recovery. You can hear it here